Clockwork souls dancing,
gears in the universe,
connected, secluded,
each with a purpose,
though it's unknown.
See it in their eyes,
they're missing the most important parts,
each human should have a human heart.
Connections made are work
fit perfectly, but only,
only for such a short time,
the clock ticks nine,
everyones out into fine,
fine mist, fine to list,
every name and every face,
but that doesn't mean,
you've got a relationship.
Not a single friend,
lover, even a hater.
You're nothing inside
except a mess of tangled gears,
twisting turning,
self destructing slowly.
We can see it in your eyes,
in your mechanica
Slipped into Inky Sea Misery.
I'm immersed in your written word,
Taken in by the smell of the pen,
Until rational thought gave in,
And now I'm drowning in a sea of ink.
Too tired of swimming to think,
Too full of words to say any,
And too afraid of the darkness
To give in to the idea of the ink.
I wrote back in simple script,
Still afraid of the words you'd writ.
The simple page torn and marred,
Just like my arms are now torn and scarred.
Another came in the mail today,
I was hoping this wasn't what it would say,
You're right, because quite obviously
not even the God that creates wants me [alive].
It's even in the same ink,
A smile from a stranger.
A hug from a friend.
A long talk about what it means to be human.
Who knows what would've happened then.
Who knows what wouldn't have.
Who knows why no one thought to try,
To help a broken soul.
To save a bottle of pills.
To help her friends understand.
She never understood the looks.
She never understood the emotion.
She never understood why the pain was always there.
All she wanted was escape.
All she wanted was to sleep a good nights rest for once.
All she wanted was respite from the pain, the dreams.
Dreams, broken smashed.
Dreams, more like nightmares.
Dreams, all gone now, it seems.
She never s
Sun, bright in my eyes as I wake.
Moon, the last thing I should see.
The time in between marked
with blurred, forgotten visions,
except the few I hold on to,
mostly of him.
First shallow breaths as I rise.
Last deep breath of the night,
my paced breathing interupted in the day,
when he takes my breath away.
Shuffle out into the world this morning,
and nestle into my bed tonight.
Repetitive motions, tired muscles,
only respite is his arms, his warmth.
Emotions a whirlwind of confusion
each made more clear with a contusion,
He's the only one that stops me,
And it rather scares me that that's the truth.
End it now,
The time is right,
The ground is fresh,
The gun is ripe.
Squalid flesh,
Rotting ground.
Messy hands,
Make few sounds.
Twisted tries,
In her wretched eyes.
Branding light shining,
From her clouding eyes.
Out of season.
Without reason.
Mushy grounds,
Made so from your sounds.
Planted now,
And you make no sounds.
Fed by blood,
Even your corpse is rosy red.
Small things, big dreams.
There're no sirens,
There're no screams,
You fed the ripened trees,
With your blood,
And they'll never know you're gone.
Shove me dead, sweetheart. by tambralovesthomas, literature
Literature
Shove me dead, sweetheart.
The night is burdened with your anxious heart,
And that is not the only problem here,
Because the day is now coming apart,
And everything is so tied up with fear.
I see you there, standing in the cold air,
Your knees are locked, your eyes are glazed over,
You and the other would make a good pair.
Shame, you aren't quite as pretty sober.
Now standing at the top of a staircase,
I complain about your lack of a jump.
It's not like I'll kill you, that's way off base.
I'll just go warn them about the nice thump.
Have no worries anymore my love,
Your life will probably end with this shove.
Grey skies, little lies. by tambralovesthomas, literature
Literature
Grey skies, little lies.
Melancholy (Rondeau)
Melancholy, under grey skies.
He tries to cheer me up; he tries.
I've made this mess and now I'm done,
I'm all alone, the only one
To know what I let go, "She cries".
And in to the outside, the lies,
They go, and now they cry. "She dies."
I've come to an end now, I'm done.
Melancholy,
Is my only drive, and He sighs,
He's given me so many tries,
I don't deserve to see the sun,
And now He knows I'm really done,
Really dieing before his eyes.
Melancholy.
what the fuck is wrong with me,
seriously, why am i so...
fucked up?
everything i do,
i screw up.
everything i feel,
is ridiculously stupid.
i can't help,
i can't do anything
except wish that i
could do something.
i am to tired to care,
and that's not really fair,
no wonder, deserves better.
I'm sorry
that I'm useless.
I'm sorry
that I'm jealous.
I'm sorry
that I can't help.
I'm sorry
that I am.
This is stupid
and pointless,
like everything i do.
And i can't help it,
that i'm useless
to everyone, including you.
Dancing in small circles,
floating on beams of light,
magical creatures,
dreams for believers,
dust motes around the empty room,
give their light to my heart this summer day.
The oppressive heat doesn't affect you,
brave soldiers, lend me some strength.
Let me get up and play,
let me enjoy this summer day,
despite the drying heat
and sweat-proof humidity.
And I still lay here,
watching you dance,
and flutter in your simple lines
of summer light, and simple days
like this one,
deserve a special tribute,
for preserving my sanity,
with their lacking vanity.
They exist as they did,
when things were simple,
as they always h
Falling Off the World by tambralovesthomas, literature
Literature
Falling Off the World
I'm So Perfect, I'm Falling Off the World
I am wishing I could fall off the world.
I believe it's better out there, beyond the stars,
And I don't believe I asked you to help me stay.
I am feeling a growing feeling,
I believe it's called love~ happiness?
I don't believe this is happening to me,
Ruining my wish, my dream.
I am wishing I might move away,
I believe that if I just stay away,
It might leave me be,
And I don't believe it's happening to me.
I am feeling a growing despair,
I don't believe I'll ever achieve my goal.
I believe it's perfect, and I think you know,
There's no chance for me to be what I wish.
I am wishing,
I'm Still Real Sorry by tambralovesthomas, literature
Literature
I'm Still Real Sorry
I'm sorry.
I can feel this in my gut,
this growing feeling of shame,
and self-imposed blame.
Sorrow for my innability.
I wish I could help you,
I wish I could say this was my fault.
Everything I fuck up, I can fix.
I can't fucking fix this.
My heart is breaking,
yours is obviously aching,
why are my fucking hands shaking?
I think I'm going to cry.
I'm always thinking
"What the hell? Why?!"
I know I deserve to die,
because even though I try,
I can't be sorry enough,
tough enough.
Loving, helpful, useful enough,
to help you.
I want to help,
I am sorry.
I'm really really sorry.
I'm so bad at helping.
What the hell is w
A dissappointment in my eyes alone,
I've come to far to stop this now.
If I must I'll just eat bitter stone.
I will attain perfect,
I've just got to, you know.
I know it won't fix me,
You know I'm still scared.
I know it's a wonder that You're there.
I'm sorry, I'm lonely sometimes,
I love you, I hate me.
Why don't you hate me?
I'm trying, perfect is just so far away.
Fuck, I wish he hadn't cared to make me stay.
I notice it all the time, how can you not?
The thighs, the pooch, god it's fucking ugly.
I'm trying so hard,
you don't know how much I wish I was "hot".
I love food, love the taste,
love the feeling of full.
I'
Damned Dreams
It's so close,
I can feel the sleep on my lids,
I can feel it
trying to claim my last minutes,
trying to claim my mind,
for its twisted dreams.
Dreams that appear to rip,
all along thier seams,
The sickness and pain
that they display
must be the reason why I hide
from thier malicious grip.
I'm so tired, so sick,
I just wish one night,
that all that sickening fright,
Might paralyze me,
hypnotize me,
use the chains and pains
and endless shames,
against me, kill me,
for once and for all.
I wish my malicious dreams,
with thier splitting seams,
would spill into real life,
and just fuckin' kill me off.
I'
My stomach twists,
I ball up my fists,
It's quite obvious I'm angry.
Why would you do that?
Couldn't you see?!
It's all ruined now,
And it's all your fault,
You've screwed me over,
My life is over,
And it's all your fault.
I'm so angry with you,
What am I supposed to do?
My stomach is gone,
I curl up and cry,
Why don't people see I feel so guilty?
How could I mess that up,
When it was so easy?!
It's all ruined now,
And it's all my fault.
I've screwed you over,
Your life is over,
And it's all my fault.
I feel so guilty,
Is there any way I can help you?
Lightest of blues and greens,
to the deepest of crushing,
mind blowing depths.
Full of the wonders,
man has never seen,
Was never meant to see.
I want to swim there,
with the giant squid,
and the dolphins,
the most beautiful of creatures,
so unlike man, they are.
And so far from him,
down in the deep depths
of crushing dark water.
Flowing schools,
fluttering their golden fins,
mesmerize the onlookers,
myself in the pack,
the beauty i see,
in the alieness
of their flowing little minds,
is only matched by the beauty
of the deep seagreens
and coral reds,
and the color of the ocean.
The color that touches everything,
l
There Is Something Wrong by tambralovesthomas, literature
Literature
There Is Something Wrong
What the hell is wrong with me?
I've got everything going for me.
and I'm STILL jealous,
of this girl that I don't even know.
My emotions are saying
"he should have been mine, i wanted him first!"
"but he never did want me too,"
my logical side refutes,
"he's hers because she's different,
better, far better than me."
And i accept that answer,
even as my heart breaks.
I hate myself for this,
this sick jealousy,
I have my love,
He should have me.
But he doesn't
I can't figure out this side.
i can't figure out why,
i'm so drawn to him,
I've been shut out, shot down,
unwanted, for so many years,
he never wanted me,
never k
I love it when they break,
I can finally say what i think.
I don't have to worry about
turning on a spout
of "omg ur nt fat!!"
and all that.
I can just be me,
I don't have to
"try and make you see"
things like i see them.
I know it's an asshole move,
I know I shouldn't be such a bitch,
But you're my friend,
You should have known all along,
I'm no fun to be around,
all your problems will seem to compound.
I'm just not mentally sound.
The sooner you break,
the less time i have to take,
being a bitch,
an emo,
depressing,
and more.
i am sorry i'm such an asshole to you though,
cause i really do like you lots <3
In sanity is Perfection by tambralovesthomas, literature
Literature
In sanity is Perfection
Perfect Creature In My Little Corner
Sitting here, under your blank stare,
is so peaceful, so strange,
My perfect creature in the corner.
Walking around you,
I've moved you out just a bit,
I'm admiring the perfect curve,
The perfect shape, then I'll
move you back into your corner.
Looking at you, I imagine,
that you're looking back at me.
Stop it, my mannequin in my corner.
Perfect features,
Empty "eyes"
Generous curves,
a waist like you've never eaten,
My perfect creature,
My mannequin,
How can you come out from your corner?
Moving around my room, prowling about,
I'm scared now, can you see me?
Please, just go back to y
Fix It.
What's wrong with you, and
why can't I make you all better?
Well, duh, some things are just personal,
he's got to work them out on his own.
But, that means I have to wait,
I have to worry, feel... sorry?
You don't feel sorry,
You just want him to make you happy.
I do? Oh well, You all knew,
I'm not the best to come to.
Oh, they knew, but they still come to you,
clever vixen and they still help YOU.
-more like a bitch.-
Oh, well, I'm sorry,
Maybe they should get a clue?
They should, but people never do.
So, it might be that it's just you.
Well damnit, I feel like I worry,
But from what you, say that'
I met a girl once who told me I was pretty.
I simply shook my head and laughed, then in a manner so as to not make her feel stupid for saying such a thing, I answered,
"Oh, thank you so much! I think you're pretty to!"
To where she commented,
"Oh no! You're just being nice!"
The thing is, she was indeed pretty, the kind of pretty that made you feel like a lucky idiot to even be looked at by her.
This happened many times with many people of both gender. Boys who didn't think they were cute, girls who thought they were too fat. To me though, they were the most beautiful people in the world.
There were many I fell in love with only to fin
The needle passed sixty without hesitation, much like the lack of hesitation in the man. The rain pounded on his windshield, at which point the wiper came at an attemt to keep the window clear and safe. Safe. The man grinned at the irony, the windshield wipers giving him an illusion of safety. His eyelids started to droop as the thousand or so downers set in. Still, he needed to watch the dial. He watched it pass seventy, fighting to stay awake. Fighting. His thoughts wandered briefly to the wife that had left him. The kids that had forgotten him. The life he was leaving behind. what life? he muttered, in a tone that surprised eve
Glass eyes
Never breaking stare
You grin as I become horrified
You stare into my frozen eyes
Your intricate dress
Spattered with red
An evil smirk upon your face
As I fill with poison
Your eyes say
My heart will never change
I created this mess
And my screaming cant faze
I ran away
Felt the chill upon my face
In disgrace
I dug a hole and screamed
Dont waste your touch
You wont feel me
The cracked porcelain told me
Told me to run
Told me to run to the woods
I asked please dont do this
I cant do this
I did it anyway
I brought with me a 37mm
Ran to the woods
I disappeared into its depths
A
For The Love Of Music by Infinite-Characters, literature
Literature
For The Love Of Music
Grace notes break into still air,
Fingers press gingerly against cold keys and valves.
Angelic voices of wood and brass illuminate a dimply lit hall.
Trills and tremellos speak in overture,
Behind the band a bass drum pounds like thunder.
In the back of theater a woman blinks away joyous tears.
An imginative child draws a picture in sound.
Keys glimmer in the hot stage lights,
Brass trumpets match the smiles of proud parents,
The conductor waltzes in time,
And a patter of Godly nature erupts from his wand.
A grandfather hears a familiar melody,
And cries as he finds his wife's voice in flute 16th runs
Up Tempo.
A storm brews abo
I went outside today. The sky was clear and reminded me of innocence, of childhood. I grabbed some chalk, blue, green, pink and white. Green is my favorite color, so I used it to write my name. Bubble letters, with nothing but sidewalk in the middle. I wrote your name in blue, because you dont have a favorite color, and green and blue go good together. I wrote the word, LOVE at the end, in pink because something in this had to be clichè. My hands are covered in a filmy powder. I stare down at my work, my masterpiece, that is soemthing so simple a five year old could have done it. I realize solemnly that when it rains there will be nothi
It's funny how, you can smile and laugh,
then the next second you're on a destructive path.
It's funny how you crack a joke,
and then the next second you tell me to choke.
It's funny how you say you're fine,
and then tonight, you crossed the line.
It's funny how you act like nothing hurts,
and then you cut yourself for all your worth.
It's funny how you walk away,
when all I've ever asked you to do is stay.
It's funny how you say you love me,
then the next moment you steer me away.
It's funny, how hard I tried.
Just to keep you alive.
It's funny how you say I never helped.
That my love for you, you never felt.
But you know wha
Im screaming,
Im crying
And you turn and walk away
Im running
Jumping through hoops
Seeking your attention
Your love
Your anything
Notice me?
Know me?
Want me?
Im alone
Surrounded by people,
Im worthless,
Im that ink stain
You keep forgetting to wash away.
What Hurts The Most? by PrincessBlackRose, literature
Literature
What Hurts The Most?
What Hurts the Most?
I can take a few tears
Every once in a while.
I can stand the nightmares now.
Staring out into the rain,
Thinking of him
Listening to his past-
That doesn't bother me.
The open flame
Ignited by the pain
Inside of me
Its not so bad.
Tossing and turning
In bed at night
Holding his picture close
Imagining him singing
My lullaby
Pretending to fall asleep
In his arms
Listening to his heart
But when I wake up-its gone.
Do I care?
Lying on the bathroom floor
Not paying attention
To whats on the other side
Of the locked door,
Wrapping my arms aroun
Forever an Ugly Duckling by XxLonesomeDovexX, literature
Literature
Forever an Ugly Duckling
One day you'll be beautiful,
Maybe blonde hair and eyes so colorful,
You'll leave them all with jaws dropped,
As you leave this place, never to be stopped.
You said, Don't cry
My ugly duckling.
Because one day he'll notice, but
You'll tell him he shouldn't've had his eyes so shut.
By then you'll have all the boys kissing your feet,
And every girl will know, that you can't be beat.
You said, Don't be shy
My ugly duckling.
Because you're so stunning on the inside,
And it's a shame you think you need to hide.
You are so brilliant, there's nothing you couldn't do.
But I had to ask, "If all you say is true,
Then why
Am I still an
https://spiralsinthedark.deviantart.com/
new one,
because subject specificness bothers meh!
thanks to e-shark, with this idea :D
so yeah,
follow that link up there
if you want to see any new stuffs
<3
inspiration =
i'm like "i wanna wrrrrrriiiiiiiiiitttttttttteeeee"
and it's like... "nevarrr"
=
so.
there you go.
bad things = best damn inspiration
and
so far
pretty much only good feelings have been going = / =]
so arg.
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